Field Module: Gorilla in the Roses

For my second field project this term I chose “Gorilla in the Roses”. This is a collage-based project lead by David Ferry which focuses particularly on book art and manipulation. I decided upon this project as it is something different from what I usually do and in the past I have always wished that I had done similar projects to this. I think that this will be a fun project and hopefully it will inspire me to create art in different ways!


Practical 3

Earlier today was the last practical session for ‘Art and the Conscious mind’. This was lead by PHD student Craig Thomas who is exploring the relationships between people in different environments. He has been creating some installation art that disorients the participants and sometimes blurs the lines between the subject and object.

We looked at one of Craig Thomas’ installations in particular this session as it was set up in my University. This piece was called ‘Labyrinth’ and as the name suggests, it was a maze! It was made up of a swirling piece of white netting that hung from the ceiling creating a path in which you could walk around and horizontal lights that moved upwards and downwards projected onto it. I found the experience of walking around the maze very surreal. All of my senses were muddled up and all I could really see were the bright lights. There was also a quiet buzzing noise in the background (possibly from the projector) which, in combination with the lights made the experience of walking around seem unfamiliar. It made me feel isolated even though I knew there were other people around me. Whilst walking around this maze I could just see shadows of people. Everyone was also very silent which added to this surreal experience. My sense of direction was also distorted because of the movements of the striped lights. The people that I could see often looked as if they were moving up and down themselves. It looked as if they were all being abducted by aliens! Overall this was quite a hypnotic experience. I felt very relaxed after walking out of the maze. I also felt slightly nauseous! I have attached some still images from the video that I made whilst walking around the net maze as I could not upload the video 😦 These images are not as effective in explaining the experience as the actual video but hopefully they do give a sense of confusion!

Pieces of art such as this one confuses out consciousness and make us more aware of realising that we are seeing. In our minds we all have memories of the world and so we are used to most things that happen. Because of this we often do not think about what we are looking at. In situations where we are unable to identify what is going on, we often make up explanations. When I was walking around in the maze my consciousness of myself seeing was heightened as it was a disorienting situation.


Painting of ‘falling’ dream

After a practical session a few weeks ago based on communicating the ‘unseen’ through art, I decided to paint a recurring ‘falling’ dream that I had when I was younger. This is a very common dream but I remember as a child being able to force this dream to happen. Every time I dreamt that I was kneeling down on my staircase whilst holding onto the banister I was able to do this. I always liked this dream!

In my painting I have painted what I can remember of this dream. I have also added some abstracted mark-making on top to resemble the movement in my dream. These marks were inspired by some paintings that I did last week of what I could see with my eyes closed.


‘Blind’ drawings

After reading about seeing through the use of senses, I decided to continue drawing through the use of my touch. I used small objects to do this so that I could feel the entire object. By doing this my drawings captured the whole objet and not just the silhouette’s. The drawing that I produced look quite gestural and in some parts quite unrecognisable.

Here is a link to my previous work where I have used my touch to draw: https://ameliagauci.wordpress.com/2013/11/30/2nd-year-manifesto-2/


“The Primacy of Perception”, Maurice Marleau-Ponty

Throughout this project (Art and the conscious mind) I have been reading “The Primacy of Perception” by Maurice Marleau-Ponty so that I could understand it in more depth. There were two parts of this book that I found helpful, firstly the chapter as titled and secondly the chapter titled, “Eye and Mind”.

“The primacy of Perception”, spoke a lot about perception being fake and giving us false truths. It states “Perception does not give me truths like geometry but presences”. I found this interesting, especially since a practical session back at the beginning of this project where we were looking at ‘ambiguous depth cues’. These are ways of creating illusions of depth. Perspective used in paintings for example is just a convenient way of capturing depth. Paintings are, after all, just flat surfaces.

This chapter also spoke about us not knowing how other people see certain things. I have often wondered this myself. When I was younger I thought that it was possible that everyone had different favourite colours due to the face that we see differently.

This chapter also touched on consciousness and specifically self-consciousness which is what our last seminar was focused on. The book stated that when a small baby is hungry, it is not conscious that it is hungry, just that it has a lack of something. Referring back to this weeks seminar, questions were brought up about the necessity of consciousness. As of yet no one knows why humans have it!

I found the “Eye and Mind” section of this book more interesting than the previous one. It covered areas that we had looked at over the course of this project such as externalism. This is the idea that our mind is not located inside our brain but somewhere else. “The mind goes out through the eyes to wander among objects” is a quote from “Eye and Mind”. This quote is on the same lines of externalism and expresses how the mind could be made up of a number of contributing factors. It also states in this book that the body is an “intertwining of vision and movement” and that the way in which we move and the routes we take are not decided by our minds, but our vision. One of the practical sessions that I attended during this project was based on the concept of capturing movement from different viewpoints and capturing the same movement from a few viewpoints at the same time.

This chapter also mentioned the ideas of Paul Cezanne quite a bit and how blind people see with their hands. Cezanne used to paint in relation to what all of his senses were aware of. He did not solely rely on sight much like a blind person. Earlier this academic year I made some drawings that were representations of what I felt with my hands. I found the concept of drawing without my sight really interesting as it often gave a unique perspective of the subject. When I was using touch to draw I found that I learned more about the objects that I was drawing. Drawing this way makes you think of things in different ways.


Seminar 4

Yesterday was the last seminar of ‘Art and the conscious mind’ and its focus was on the self-awareness of the conscious mind. We started this session by looking at a painting of Adam and Eve by the renaissance artist Lucas Cranach the Elder. This painting depicts Adam and Eve just before the fruit was eaten. In it, Eve looks rather devious and Adam quite unsure. As the story goes, once they ate the fruit their eyes were opened and suddenly felt self-conscious. Humans are uniquely self-conscious, we can reflect on our actions and plan for the future. We can also recognise that other people have their own minds and can also recognise this in works of art. Even though we know that the subjects of paintings are produced from paint, we seem to be able to connect with them and read their emotions as if they were real. The big question though is why we need self-consciousness. This brings us back to the ‘hard problem’ that we touched on during our first seminar. This is yet to be solved! Going back to the Adam and Eve story, their life before they were self-conscious was fulfilling and simple. This is true for many animals and babies. Some people think that our self-consciousness is a learned behaviour and was developed through our social interactions with each other.

The philosopher Descartes was troubled by worry all of his life. Descartes infamous quote “I think, therefore I am” was significant in us learning about our consciousness. As long as you can doubt things, you cannot be certain about anything, even the world that you perceive, but being able to think proves that you do exist.

Some philosophers, such as Antonio Damasio think that we have multiple ‘self’s’. These being a ‘core’ self, which is your awareness and your ‘autobiographical’ self, which is your history and you future. This is similar to the extentionist idea that we looked at a few weeks ago. Your mind is possibly a bundle of all things connected to you.

On the other hand. some people believe that we are not actually aware and that we only have consciousness because different parts of our brain are aware of each other.

What is ‘self’ exactly? It is hard to say. When I think about this question, I guess my answer is that ‘self’ is made up of a lot of things. It is made up of you past , future and your physicality. The word ‘self’ is, after all, just a word. A good phrase was used in this seminar. It stated  “I have a toothache”. What is ‘toothache’ exactly? Again it is just a word. When thinking about it, it probably makes more sense to say “I am a toothache” however odd that may sound! Since choosing this module, I have found that I have been thinking about things in different ways…possibly in too much detail. Drawing back to the Adam and Eve piece, life is a lot simpler when there is no consciousness!

There is a theory called the homunculus problem. This theory states that there is a ‘little person’ inside your brain receiving information from the world and making sense of it for us! But isn’t this ‘little person’ just a metaphor for our brain? There are lots of different parts of our brain coming together to make sense of the world. This theory seems very strange and very paradoxical as there would have to be another ‘little person’ inside their head and another inside theirs and so on…

As always, there are many problems and paradoxes when it comes to figuring out our mind’s. The idea of infinite regression is an interesting one. This suggests that our minds are a sequence of loops that don’t break, but just change. In this seminar the following was said to clarify this, “It is a nice day”, “I just noticed it is a nice day”, “I just noticed that I noticed it is a nice day”, “I missed my bus”… If you think about yourself thinking it is rather strange.

Self-awareness has been depicted many times throughout history in Art. One example used in yesterdays seminar was a self-portrait of Johannes Gumpp. This features the artist three times; firstly sitting on a stool, secondly as a reflection in a mirror and thirdly as a painting on a canvas. This piece of art tells us what the artists must have been doing at the time of its creation. Also, it is interesting that when you look at this piece, you perceive the painting of Gumpp sitting on the stool as the real Gumpp and not just a painting!


More paintings of what I can see with my eyes closed!

I have continued to paint what I can see with my eyes closed. The first painting shown is of when I was in total darkness. I kept on seeing shapes changing and different patterns emerging. The second painting was of what I could see whilst blinking at my light. This was the more interesting one as steaks of light were left behind in my vision each time I blinked.

a link to my previous painting: https://ameliagauci.wordpress.com/2014/01/29/what-i-can-see-with-my-eyes-closed/